Can you procrastinate an existential crisis?

Graduating high school and starting university was different from the idea I had in my head. There's just no way of telling what it will be like until you are actually there... Getting on topic, well hello there reader who stumbled upon my blog. I am some weird seventeen year old girl who decides to post things on the internet and her blog is named after a quote from princess diaries. Currently this girl is studying and guess what... she has been studying pretty much everything that is NOT on the exam (stupid, am I right?). It's not that I am procrastinating... okay that's technically not true as I have been procrastinating sleep but that's another issue. Yeah at this point I am rambling.. So let's just say our goodbyes (for now at least) and see each other next time. And, (you knew this was coming) as always This Is As Good As It's Gonna Get.

WOOLWORTHS...

My grandma left some groceries at Woolworths, as you can probably guess she rang them. In a few minutes we were back there and I walk up to the front counter, I explained to them what had happened. The lady asked had my grandma phoned, I replied "Yes, it was a few minutes ago." Guess what she asked my next.... "Will you go and get them." I don't do any form of shopping, vounteerly. It took me forever to find the appropriate items, by this time my grandma had left the car wondering where I am... Today was eventful. So as always This Is As Good As It's Gonna Get.

This is how to be a heartbreaker...

Rule #1: Is that you've got to have fun, but when your done you've got to be the first to run.

Rule #2: Don't get attached to someone you could lose.

Rule #3: Where your heart on you check but never on your sleeve unless you want to taste defeat

Rule #4: Gotta be looking pure, just say goodbye at the door and leave him wanting more.

This song is now my anthem, well the Nightcore version anyway. I've started dancing, I'm actually pretty good. Sadly I can't tell anyone because I want to have at least one secret. Oh well now I have no secrets. Okay that's a lie... As always This Is As Good As It's Gonna Get.

How do you tell someone that you can't be their best friend anymore?

My "best friend" has been talking behind my back for a while now... I haven't given a second thought to it until today and decided to try and tell her and then started to type it but then wrote "... Nevermind" she started swearing and getting mad at me. I have decided that I no longer be friends with someone like that... she CONSTANTLY NEEDS to be THE CENTER OF ATTENTION! But how do you tell your best friend that you don't want to be friends anymore? Well as always... THIS IS AS GOOD AS ITS GONNA GET.

Books are my love life...

My love love can only be within books because well it is non-existent. I have to focus on school... Now I know what you're going to say... I'm a nerd or have no social life. Those points are slightly true but I have friends so shush. Anyway I'm not technically I'm a nerd I just need to study to keep up. I need to get B's in everything to get the op and my dream career. That Bloody Cain... I'll tell you about him later! But as always THIS IS AS GOOD AS ITS GONNA GET!

Thinking...

Apparently if you think you're going mad you aren't... So doesn't that imply if you think you're sane that you're mad? Life is a complicated thing but it can be snatched out from underneath you... In an instant! Why should you hold you're tongue? Why shouldn't you? My brain has now been twisted and manipulated so many times that I like being used.... Hurt and heartbroken. This isn't normal is it? Why do I think of the perfect way to murder someone? However I make sure that it's with the most agony... Is it because I am not letting go of hatred and  the pain I keep inside? I feel like an empty vessel, meaningless, emotionless, worthless... Hopeless! Why don't people just give up on me? 

Well I'm a liar...

I passed all my subjects... But only that! I was lying to myself saying that I could get B's. Well now I'm going to study for the rest of the holidays. Luckily the Christmas holidays are the longest ones all year. Sadly I can't become a genius overnight... However music has always been my best friend so I will get through it! I was looking at religions today and I found out that Witchcraft is a recognised religion, so is Vampirism... I don't go outside as it is but I am going to attempt to go for a run twice a week. Yeah I am lying to myself... Well as always THIS IS AS GOOD AS ITS GONNA GET.